Spontaneous meetup at Simei Starbucks with my sayangs, engaging in serious conversations about grown-up stuff, then making silly faces on Photo Booth in clear view of everyone who walked in/out/sat outside, including my stalker (:S), got me laughing more than I've had in awhile. Combined with a lazy afternoon spent with my sickeningly hyper sister, Simpang supper with my Penang/KL relatives <3 and sleepover with sweet, little, Syazlynn, it was a good day. A very good day. :)

These days I've been having the weirdest dreams that keep me awake all night, only falling asleep when the sun comes up. I also dreamt of someone dying, and true enough, he passed away the next morning. People call my foresight a "gift", but I see myself more of a jinx, like the angel of death. You'd think me foreseeing multiple deaths made me immune to the pain from the loss, that is not the case. It hurts every.freaking.time. To see people mourning over the loss of their loved ones make me feel responsible, even though I know I'm not, and I can't help but hate/blame myself for it. I'm in a bitter, bitter mood, suffering from a major headache, fever and cramps that are about to kill me. Well, I guess I don't deserve to be happy when others are grieving.

i think it's true, as we grow older, we gradually feel lesser for things we used to care so much.
as of now, i've reached the point where i've stop trying to please others, unless really necessary.

Current Mood: mellow